Ainda sobre as duvidas da Madre Teresa (a/c Jagoz)

Da leitura da Time, a única que fiz, retira-se somente a expressão de uma fé ardente, combativa, vivida, não-complacente, e é no meio dela que aparecem os rebates da dúvida. Insisto, para mim o resultado engrandece a santidade, não a diminui - há um triunfo final sobre ela própria, uma fortaleza inabalável apesar de tudo, uma genuína e muito invulgar heroicidade moral:

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Jesus has a very special love for you. As for me, the silence and the emptiness is so great that I look and do not see, listen and do not hear. to the Rev. Michael Van Der Peet, September 1979

So many unanswered questions live within me afraid to uncover them — because of the blasphemy — If there be God — please forgive me — When I try to raise my thoughts to Heaven — there is such convicting emptiness that those very thoughts return like sharp knives & hurt my very soul. — I am told God loves me — and yet the reality of darkness & coldness & emptiness is so great that nothing touches my soul. Did I make a mistake in surrendering blindly to the Call of the Sacred Heart? addressed to Jesus, at the suggestion of a confessor, undated

Please pray specially for me that I may not spoil His work and that Our Lord may show Himself — for there is such terrible darkness within me, as if everything was dead. It has been like this more or less from the time I started 'the work.' March 1953, to Ferdinand Périer

Such deep longing for God — and ... repulsed — empty — no faith — no love — no zeal. — [The saving of] Souls holds no attraction — Heaven means nothing — pray for me please that I keep smiling at Him in spite of everything. 1956, to Ferdinand Périer

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